How Painting Found Me and Never Let Me Go

Before I could read, there was a box.
Inside, loose masterpieces.
Fragonard and others.
Each one its own world of story and sensuality.
I would lift the lid and take them out one by one.
Sit with them.
Turn them over.
I couldn't read the words on the back yet.
But I didn't need to.
The paintings already spoke.
I have never stopped listening.
Art was simply the air I breathed growing up.
My mother was an art lover and collector.
I played piano, sang in chorus, performed at celebrations.
Galleries in Budapest.
Museums across Europe.
The Uffizi. The Louvre. The Vatican.
Theatre and opera woven into ordinary life.
But never yet as maker.


Then came the financial markets.
Years of structured, high-pressure work.
Every minute organised.
Every hour accounted for.
I was good at it.
I was successful.
But something was waiting.
When we moved to Malaysia, I made a decision.
Not a crisis.
A choice.
I would finally give myself everything I'd been postponing.
Meditation. Yoga. Tennis.
Photography classes first —still the observer, still capturing beauty rather than creating it.
But getting closer.

"If you can forget a painting, it's not worth it."

And then one afternoon I found an online painting course.
I put on Zorba the Greek.
I chose red and orange — my happy colours.
I put my fingers directly into the paint.
And I danced.
The music in my body.
The paint on my hands.
The memory of the Greek sea appearing on the canvas.
It was liberating.
Something that had been waiting my whole life finally came through.
Painting puts me in a place I want to be — even when I'm not there.
Even in pain, I can forget.
Even in difficulty, I can find my way back.
I have never stopped painting since.


Today my studio has forest light coming through the glass.
On my walls —
an Indonesian warrior
I painted for myself, fear in his eyes but ready for his next fight.
A Chagall
I copied by hand, a reminder about love and softness.
And my abstracts —
mystical, layered, worlds I can step into whenever I need to disappear for a moment.
I don't paint from paradise anymore.
I paint to find it again.
In every layer.
Every colour.
Every mark.
"Art is the Highest Form of Hope"
Gerhard Richter
If you can forget a painting, it's not worth it.
My art is for people who don't forget.
For walls that need a presence, not just a picture.
For lives that have room for beauty that means something.
Welcome. I'm glad you're here.


A Few Places My Paintings Have Been Seen
Member of A.C.C.E.S, France
Corss-Cultural Exchange Society
Member of Ginger Cactus Art, UK
Showcasing a wide range of contemporary artists and their work
Singulart
You can find the Atmospheres of Becoming series there.






